Things that upset me.

Let's see hereee. First off, something that has been bugging me. I know I shouldn't have gotten frustrated the way I did. However I could say alot about why I shouldn't be the only one that apologized.

Second, I will not be attending UNA D: This makes me sad because I was actually kind of excited about actually having a plan for once in my life. Of course it did not last. If i go to college at all, I will probably have to go to Faulkner. I feel like everybody makes mistakes in their lives, but I feel like I have made all the mistakes that can seriously mess up everything. It seems like all of my friends have a plan, they are all going to buy stuff for their dorms and having going away parties. I feel like I got left in the dust as always. Don't get me wrong I am truly happy for them. I just wish I could be right there with them talking about the grand adventure of college that is soon to come. I wish them the best of luck.

Third, I have been reading about homosexuals! It makes me ridiculously furious. I don't even know what to say. Religion is the main thing that makes me upset I guess. When a person holds up a sign saying "God hates fags!" here is why I have a problem with that. 1) God does not hate anyone. I firmly believe that. I do not have a specific religion for many reasons, but to put it simply, religious people just put a bad taste in my mouth. I do believe in God. I am gay, but if you say that your god would send me to hell for this then I will tell you that I love my God and I will see you in heaven. 2) You do not get to be the holy prosecutor for God, so put your sign down. Stick to your beliefs if you feel they are true and leave others to their beliefs. 3) BE NICE! The God that I have read about in the bible loves ALL of his children. Not just certain people, no. God. Loves. ALL. Of. His. Children!!!!!!!!! I don't have much else to say on that topic.... please be nice.

I guess those are the three main things that are bugging me at the moment.

My Little Feelins xD

Oh hi! I feel like getting some of these good emotions out so I can come back and look at them later.... Soooo, here we go!

This is mainly about sexuality, of course. I finally feel comfortable with mine and it is amazing because, for so long, I denied what I knew was true. Being gay was always something I hated about myself. I just wanted to be normal. I tried everything to make myself straight, but, as many gay people well tell you, that is impossible to do unless you want to make yourself unhappy. I tried dating girls that were good friends of mine and, thank God I didn't try to pursue any of those relationships for very long. I was being selfish and putting their feelings at risk because I wanted to deny something that was part of me. They would have been hurt, and it would have been my fault.

But luckily!!! ;D I did not hurt any of my friends and now I am completely comfortable with being gay. The main reason for this is I finally found someone to make me realize I can be happy and be gay. He is one of the most amazing people I've ever met and he makes me very happy. I am actually happy that I am gay now because of him.

But I don't want to be too lovey-dovey. I realize that something could happen and I won't get to be with this amazing guy, but it's the fact that he opened my eyes to what I really want.

k i'm done now :P

Dance!!!!! ABDC auditions

I don't know when ABDC season 4 starts and I'm too lazy to look it up at the moment, but I have been researching some of the crews that have auditioned. Out of all the crews I've seen, Fr3sh and Vogue Evolution have really stood out to me. So here are some videos of their auditions and their choreography callbacks. I have no idea who actually made it on the show though D:









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