This is mainly about sexuality, of course. I finally feel comfortable with mine and it is amazing because, for so long, I denied what I knew was true. Being gay was always something I hated about myself. I just wanted to be normal. I tried everything to make myself straight, but, as many gay people well tell you, that is impossible to do unless you want to make yourself unhappy. I tried dating girls that were good friends of mine and, thank God I didn't try to pursue any of those relationships for very long. I was being selfish and putting their feelings at risk because I wanted to deny something that was part of me. They would have been hurt, and it would have been my fault.
But luckily!!! ;D I did not hurt any of my friends and now I am completely comfortable with being gay. The main reason for this is I finally found someone to make me realize I can be happy and be gay. He is one of the most amazing people I've ever met and he makes me very happy. I am actually happy that I am gay now because of him.
But I don't want to be too lovey-dovey. I realize that something could happen and I won't get to be with this amazing guy, but it's the fact that he opened my eyes to what I really want.
k i'm done now :P
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